A walk in Bali

Last September I spent a few weeks in Bali.  What a wonderful, magical place with incredible landscapes and even more incredible people.  I dedicated weeks to doing yoga and walking through the monkey forest each morning as the monkeys stalked tourists, to tease them by stealing sunglasses or waited for the too often foodstuffs that would be tossed near them on the ground.   And there always seemed to be the unwitting human who was foolish enough to hold the prize in their hands – which only led to the monkeys mounting their shoulders to snatch the banana or other morsel, generally sending the human screaming and running back to the tour bus in terror.  I can only imagine what the monkeys must think of our species – but hey, I think the same thing a great deal of the time about myself.  Unusual priorities and foolish behavior!!

Observations about Bali.

The beauty, religion and culture are so very integrated.  I remember the first driver who picked me up at the airport in Denpasar and drove me to Ubud was 18 year old “younger Wayan” as he introduced himself.  During the drive through village after village, he described not only the various crafts, temples and layout of each village but went into great depth with the various religious beliefs and daily rituals that are such a part of the life there. It struck me as unusual then that this young man was so open and friendly and explained very detailed concepts with such ease.  Not in a preachy, holy sort of way but in a matter of fact conversational manner.  It would recur over and over with so many of the people there.  Their religion is integrated along with their family and village in a way I have never seen before.  Time and again I would find myself being an American.  Doubting sincerity, thinking that whoever I was dealing with was “trying to get theirs”, only to find honesty and openness in a disarming way that made me feel ashamed I had such thoughts.

Putu became my main driver and friend.  He took me around the country, to temples in the jungle and amazing ceremonies with high priests and ornate dress,  stopping at roadside tents to sample local foods – jackfruit and durian,  salak and sirzak, leisurely eating each new fruit and watching Putu’s face contort in laughter as my face erupted as the rush of new flavors assaulted my taste buds.  He took me wandering through his family’s rice fields, explaining to me the hierarchy of the communal rice fields where the control of the water that irrigated all the villager’s separate family rice plots was controlled by the villager whose plot lay furthest from the water source – guaranteeing even the furthest plot would receive water in the toughest of times.  How beautiful and perfect in it’s simplicity.  He took me into his home “compound” to meet his family, sharing food and time together – explaining the layout of the various family “houses” within the compound where over 20 children, parent, grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles all shared the “compound” and lived together as the family had for generations.

There were times I would travel with his cousin – “older Wayan” not “younger Wayan” who had picked me up at the airport.  Older Wayan had driven me several times around Bali and I knew him pretty well.  He wasn’t as outgoing as Putu and didn’t have Putu’s gift of gab, but was always timely and interested in whether what he was showing me was interesting.  He picked me up early one morning at my hotel.  I was scheduled to leave Bali that morning but my plans were changed and I stayed on another 10 days.  I did not connect with Wayan to let him know of my change in plans, so he arrived at 6am to take me on the 90 minute drive to Denpasar to catch my flight.  When I met him in the lobby and told him of my decision, he “understood, – there is no problem”.  I was headed to the Yoga Barn to do my morning yoga and he offered to drive me.  I accepted and during the drive he asked if I would still be staying at the hotel.  I told him no, they were full and they were checking with another property to see if I could get a room.  Wayan was concerned that I wouldn’t have a place to stay and offered to take me to a hotel he knew of close to the Yoga Barn.  I told him I wasn’t worried – there were vacancies around, I had already checked and found a place if needed but I said, “sure, we have extra time before yoga so lets check out the place”.   He took me to a hotel not far from the Yoga Barn and as we drove into the place, my suspicious mind figured,  “he must be getting a cut from the hotel to recommend it – that must be how things worked here” but it looked nice and I thought if the price was right I’d book it and he could make a few extra bucks and if not, no harm no foul.  As it turned out, the hotel didn’t have any vacancies so we drove back to the Yoga Barn.  As I got of out his car I handed him 300,000 rupiah ($30) for the agreed upon price for my drive from Ubud to Denpasar.  Wayan looked at me uncomfortably and said, “No Mister Joe, I can’t accept this – I’ve done nothing to earn it.”  I explained that yes he had – he had driven the half hour from his house in the country to pick me up as agreed – I hadn’t cancelled – and he had driven me around, taken me to the hotel and now to the Yoga Barn and it was no problem – I wanted him to have the money.  He protested and shoved the money back in my hand.  I shoved it back in his hand and quickly opened the door and headed down the long walkway toward the Yoga Barn.  Wayan leapt of his car and ran after me, pleading with me – almost in tears, pulling at my hand and forcing me to take the money back.  I walked back to the car with him, talking, trying to get him to accept some of the money – explaining that he at least deserved some of it.  As I leaned against the open car window, he started his engine to drive off relieved our skirmish was over.  I threw 200,000 rupiah into the open window and literally ran down the walkway to the Yoga Barn, escaping the fellow who I feared was trying to take advantage of me only a few minutes earlier at the hotel but who now wouldn’t even accept $20 from me.  He wouldn’t accept it even though he had at least an hour round trip drive from his home at 5:30 in the morning, plus the cost of gas which in Bali is not cheap, because “he hadn’t earned it.”

Needless to say, I had plenty of pride to examine during my yoga and meditation practice that morning and a lot of soul searching about who was exhibiting an open heart on a daily basis.  Unusual priorities and foolish behavior!!

The real story about Bali though is how I stumbled upon a peace and serenity I had been missing, hidden away in the gardens of the Yoga Barn and little K organic restaurant.   There I met so many wonderful people – so many wonderful teachers and there I met Uma, a powerhouse of a woman, a jungle cat of sorts, part shaman, yogini and ayurvedic doctor, with a laugh so infectious it reaches into your soul and eyes so piercing they certainly gaze into it – who upon meeting me and knowing me for less than 5 minutes, stated “You are here to learn to slow down and live and it’s a good thing, because if you don’t,  you will die”.  Prophetic words on the heels of my most recent underwater “out of air” experience and her guidance and presence was enlightening and illuminating to say the least and draws me back to Bali again soon.  And Lisa, her apprentice, my breath work teacher and oceangoing friend who helped me find my breath, when I didn’t even know it was missing, and taught me to ride it to a connection within and an ongoing transformation and reconnection.  Lisa whose smile lit the rice paddies and jungles and who touched my heart with her wonder of life, her simple sincerity and dedication to finding her truth and helping me find mine.  I spent mornings after yoga sitting alone in the little K, musing over golden dragonflies chiming their insights with rhythmic song or together with Uma and Lisa and others in a non-verbal dance of mystery, poetry and vibratory connection interspersed with laughter over coffee, tea and breakfast.  Bali is indeed a magical place – at least for this cowboy.

To really do Uma justice – well, that is why we have another day – Trying to explain my experience with Uma is like trying to explain golden dragonflies conversing or the imperceptible vibrations of leaves.  Maddening and full of air and unless you have heard the dragonflies or seen the vibrations – difficult if not impossible.  But perhaps I’ll try — We will see, we will see. . .

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Been Away Too Long

May 1, 2012

Has it really been last August since I wrote anything here?  Whew.  I knew it had been a while but that is ridiculous.  Lot’s has happened in my world since then.  I have traveled and dove the pristine reefs surrounding Komodo National Park, a world heritage site and home to some of the most amazing waters I have witnessed.  I saw the wonders of our world explode both in and out of the water – dragons that still roam the land and can take down a large horse or ox with a single bite and devour it, bones and all in less than two hours.  Schools of fish rising from the depth to the surface of the ocean and reefs vibrate with colors that crash at the brain shocking even the most hardened diver among us.  Diving on reefs that may have never been seen by people before – what a gift!  I didn’t think these places existed any longer, anywhere in the world.  I saw villagers who lived on the side of rock and roamed the waters in dug out canoes – truly eking out a living with their hands.  I experienced nomad fishermen using dynamite to stun and kill fish, only claiming the easy few from the surface as many they had killed simply sank to the bottom, killed and wasted for absolutely no reason.  

Dynamite fishing has become a hot topic of late with an associated press story about the destruction of some of these reefs of Komodo National Park.

I had an out of air malfunction on a wall dive and was saved by a woman who calmed me and settled me and helped me to the surface after a mad dash under the water, unsure of the outcome.  Running out of air — taking my breath for granted — it made me to once again look at my life and realize how precious every second is to us.

I spent time in Bali.  What a wonderful, magical place with incredible landscapes and even more incredible people.  There I met Uma.  An amazing woman who changed how I looked at my life and sent me on a journey of inward discovery that continues to expand today.  I spent time at home in Kansas City, settled and happy with family and friends – two angels in the form of my granddaughters who teach me daily what unconditional love and God looks like.  My friend and mentor Duke once taught me that I can always find God in that space between my eyes and my granddaughters – that gaze that speaks all.   So far it hasn’t failed me once.

I found a second home on the big island of Hawaii, dancing with dolphins and whales with my new found friends Veto and Deidra.  And I think I found my pace, my next vision of how I might be of service to humans, the ocean and the earth and other sentient beings.  At least I found the direction.  So maybe that is why it has been so many months since my writing.  Maybe I have just been busy living and the ruminations and rumblings on paper needed time to ferment and bubble forth.  As with so many things, I don’t know nor do I really care.  I am blessed and grateful — life is rich and precious — people are fascinating and there aren’t enough hours in the day

Laugh and live and wonder at it all.

As Albert Einstein said, “He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed.”

He also said, “Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves”.

Yup, Einstein said it.  Go figure.  He was a hunk and I guess maybe a playah. . .

So, here’s to a re-commitment to communication.  I dedicate myself to writing often, sharing my thoughts, photos and films.  I’ll share more in the coming days on Komodo, Bali, Hawaii, Uma, Veto, Diedra and undoubtedly more ruminations of a fool.  I hope to have my latest short film finished within the week and will post it when it is done.  I will then turn to updating my photos for my website – something I have been meaning to do for months. 

But even more than that, here is to living a life of meaning and purpose and to being as kind and loving as I can be, each day I have left on this earth and embracing life and engaging with people – really sinking my teeth into it. Maybe you can join me for part of the ride.

If I don’t risk and don’t try something new, something exciting daily – what’s this all about anyway?

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Thoughts from the Pacific Northwest

I am staying in a cabin in the temperate rain forest at the base of Mt. Hood Oregon.  It’s one of my favorite places and always makes me appreciate mother nature.   I feel so blessed to have this life – this living, breathing life and yet so often get caught up in selfishness.  Concentration on areas of lack in my life.   I think about me most of the time and what I want or don’t have, instead of thinking of others or of all the blessings I have in my life.  It’s easy in our modern day life of consumerism and constant messages of needing this or that to be okay.  If I buy the right car, clothing, after shave, beer, fill in the blank — then I will be okay, then I will have arrived.  The woods slow me down and help remind me of what is important.  People are what is important and if I can slow down and feel the blessings then I have a chance of reaching out to others and having an intimate connection with them that has depth and meaning.  A connection that celebrates life and lets us share our humanity and imperfection and realize we don’t have to do this thing called life alone – we are all in this together to the extent we allow ourselves to open up and embrace each other.

A simple story this morning also caught my eye.  It focuses on a group of people who built “Vaka’s” — canoes used by the peoples of the south pacific to travel the oceans long ago.  This group traveled from the south pacific to San Fransisco in an attempt to show that use of old traditional methods of communal effort could provide lessons to us all in how we approach many of the problems affecting us and our environment.

The organizer of the voyage, Dieter Paulmann noted “The vaka is safe, it brings solidarity and joy, it’s driven by solar power, it’s simple, and it brings us back to our roots”.

It makes me think we would all be well served to return to our basic roots of co-operation and community in an effort to help the earth and each other in this wonderful experience we call life.

 

 

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Making a bit of a difference

I was reading several worthy articles published by the Pew Environmental Group this morning and two of them caught my eye.

The first of these concerns new proposals for oil drilling in the Artic Sea.

Polar Bear

Given the disaster in the Gulf Coast I think we all have a more realistic view of the potential devastation of large areas of our oceans from an accident involving ocean drilling rigs.  The Pew Group is submitting letters to the decision makers and it is literally will take you 15 seconds to add your signature.   This link will take you to their website and the right side of their webpage contains the “Take Action” link to add your signature.

The second article concerns overfishing in the Atlantic Ocean and positive steps being taken to address this situation. Several fish species have declined to alarming levels and last week the South Atlantic Fishery Management Council, which sets fishing policies in federal waters from North Carolina to Florida approved a plan to set catch limits on dozens of species before they plummet to dangerously low levels.

Hopefully, if we all raise our awareness and take even small actions, we can begin to make a difference in protecting our oceans and the beautiful creatures that inhabit it.

 

 

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Saving a humpback whale

Do you need a story of inspiration.  I found one and this youtube video demonstrates what a difference one family can make. Without these people’s intervention and help, this whale surely would have died. What difference will I make today in someone’s life? Maybe not a life saving difference like this one, but I have the choice daily to impact people for the positive or the negative. And who knows what impact my words or deeds may have on another persons life.

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Hope for the planet

This morning I read a few articles and blogs about our oceans, conservation efforts, sadness at some of the existing conditions and a message or two of hope. It seems the news is filled daily with discouraging events that impact us in ways we have yet to fully realize. But in all these discouraging articles, there is reason for hope. Two articles in particular caught my attention. The first article titled Saving the Salmon concerned government action regarding salmon in the pacific northwest and was published in the Idaho Mountain Express.  For once maybe government is doing something right in prodding NOAA to provide sound plans to protect steelhead and salmon.

The second article comes from Dr. Sylvia Earle and her recent expedition to the Swan Islands — often referred to the Galapagos Islands of the Caribbean.  During this expedition the study group found cause for concern in the absence of reef sharks, groupers and even snapper as well as degradation of the reef.  But as always, her deepness was able to find areas of hope when most of us only find reason for despair.  The final dispatch on the expedition is titled Swan Island Expedition Final Thoughts and once again Dr. Earle is able to find reason for hope as well as reporting the overfishing and damage to the reef from other forces.

I imagine I am like most everyone on the planet these days.  I want to turn off the news because it is so depressing. What I learn from these articles and individuals involved is that I must pay attention and become involved in issues that concern all of us and our future and that of our children and grandchildren.  And even in the apathy that can be generated day in and day out, I need to find beacons of hope so that I can be that beacon for the next person and they can be that for another, and on and on.  That is my hope.  That this one on one type of connection can lead us to protect our oceans, protect our planet and encourage one another when the daily news does anything but encourage.

 

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State of our Oceans

A friend just sent me this link from the International Programme on the state of the Ocean to a world report on the dire state of our oceans. A short article with an overview of the report can be found at this Huffington Post link for those who don’t want to digest the entire report.  For those of us diving these oceans regularly, this is hardly new news but it is so important for us to continue to educate others. I find so many folks who have no idea what is happening in overfishing, acidification, coral bleaching, CO2 emission harms, bycatch fishing practices, to name a few of the stresses on our fragile waters. Education and action are our only hope to change this before our children and grandchildren face a far different world than we now have – one of dead oceans. It’s already happening and this report is just the latest of many saying so.

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Digital Shootout 2011

I am in Bonaire attending the Digital Shootout, a week long scuba diving/photography/video event where we all dive, attend workshops and submit our photos and videos for critiques and contests. The event is hosted by Backscatter, the largest supplier of underwater photo/video gear in the world. A typical day begins with diving all morning, followed by a workshop on a specific topic and participants either attend or may elect to do more diving in the afternoon. The hardest thing is trying to find time to download our photos/videos and select photos or edit video for the nightly critique/show which is done on a large projector under the stars in the bar just off the ocean. I am amazed at the talent shooting at this event, evidenced by the nightly show.  There are so many really good shooters and the images range from beautiful to stirring to mesmerizing as is evidenced the noise from all of us watching.  When someone nails a photo or video, loud noises, oohs and ahhs, you rocked it and squeels echo into the night air.  It’s a really great event and the comraderie seems to elevate everyone’s game and while competitive to some, really brings a feeling of community to me.   Berkley White (the owner of Backscatter) and all of his crew do an amazing, professional job of hosting this event which is in it’s 10th year and continues to grow and attract quality participants from around the world.  Kudos to them for tackling this project and helping all of us improve our craft.  Attached is a 1 minute short from the house reef in front of our resort.

Bonaire Digital Shootout 1

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Sometimes my world is stopped.

I was in a head on car crash a week ago. Totaled my car and probably the other one. I don’t know if it’s just me but my immediate reaction is that it’s not a big deal. I was in a car crash. The car was smashed up and I walked away from it so let’s not make a big deal about it. Life goes on.

Car crash 1

 

 

But the truth is that it is a big deal. It is a big deal for a lot of reasons.

Three years ago this week I survived an airplane crash. My airplane, me flying, lost an engine at 400 ft on takeoff and I somehow righted the airplane from a spin and drove it into the ground. The airplane was totaled and I walked away intact. Well not quite intact. The aftermath of that crash still rumbles around in my psyche – part of me stayed in that airplane for a long, long time – maybe still. I thought I was dead as the airplane plummeted and when I wasn’t . . . well, I guess maybe part of me was.

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This car crash brought back those thoughts and emotions with a vengeance. The moment of impact was so similar – the difference this time was I didn’t move in slow motion and think, “So this is how I die – hmmm. In an airplane crash, how interesting.” Instead in this crash the impact was swift and then the car filled with the smoke from the airbag. But I didn’t realize it was the airbag. I thought the car was on fire. The battery was damaged so the electric windows and door locks didn’t work and for a few seconds I was dominated with the fear of burning alive. Just when I thought I should kick out the window, I realized I could manually unlock the door. And when I did the rush of fresh air filling the car sent waves of relief and release through my veins as I realized I would survive, I wouldn’t burn. Instead I stepped back in that familiar place climbing out of the airplane cockpit. My life had suddenly changed completely. Again. Within a couple of hours the tears would rush over me just as they did so many times after the airplane crash.

The questions from the airplane crash were many and the same ones came back. Why did I survive? Am I supposed to do something in particular, given this second chance? What kind of life am I living? What are the choices I have made and am I at peace with those choices? Am I happy? Am I doing fulfilling things in my life? Am I a kind person to others? Who is in my life that I want to share these questions with? Who are my friends? Do they represent the values of compassion and kindness I think is important? How do they treat people? How do I treat people? What is important? My family? My business? My house? My neighbors? My possessions, cars, boats, computers, cameras, yoga mat, silverware? What do I really want to do with the rest of my life – regardless of how short or long it is?

When I boil down all the questions, at the heart of it all is this: Am I living a life of meaning?

Am I?

I think I am. I am trying my best and hope I don’t have to go through another crash of any kind to dedicate my life daily to the important questions, actions and lifestyle where living a life of meaning is the main focus and not a philosophical afterthought. And being kind, caring and loving to others – everyone I come in contact with, is the beginning of living a life of meaning. For me – this is what is important. I hope I do it most days. I know I won’t do it every day but if I talk about it out loud and write about it and if I slow down and think about it every morning, maybe I will do it more of the time. I am committed and dedicated to trying.

NOW seems really, really important. My lover Suzanne said years ago on her death bed – “Pay Attention”.

This time one message is abundantly clear to me – Slow Down. Slow down in every area of my life and Pay Attention.

I’m trying.

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Diving with Great White Sharks in Southern Australia

21 May, 2011

Back in Port Lincoln, Southern Australia on Saturday morning, riding out 30 ft swells and wind gusts to 40mph for the next 48 hours.  Glad to have a port in the storm.  The first 7 days of the trip were spent at the Neptune Islands diving aboard the Princess II with the great white sharks.  Amazing, amazing animals.  Graceful, sleek, formidable, gliding through the water effortlessly and undeniably the apex predator of the oceans.  They are so beautiful and unpredictable.  We are with Rodney Fox Shark Expeditions and Rodney and his son Andrew were both on board for the first week, with Rodney sharing stories of his exploits with sharks both water based and land based.  You can’t help but fall in love with Rodney.  He is warm and kind with an engaging smile, a kind word and a slap on the arm to make you feel like you have known him a long time when you have in fact just met him.  Rodney survived a great white attack in the 60’s and after 400+ stitches to his torso has gone on to start a foundation to protect and research these wonderful but threatened animals.  His son Andrew is no less engaging with a wry grin and infectious laugh and it is he who has really taken on the research of great whites and growth of the foundation.  After most dives, Andrew can be found late into the night documenting and cataloging the photos and “fingerprints” of the various sharks seen on the days dive and compiling this information with a determination that is remarkable.  After seeing the sharks and listening to Andrew talk about them like family members, I have a new appreciation not only for him but for his company and foundation.  This is not a commercial venture built to exploit this species but a true labor of love built to help all of us hopefully appreciate and preserve this great shark.

The shark dives happen each day, beginning about 9:30am when the first cage is lowered to the seabed with 3 divers and one dive master where the cage rests on the ocean floor or on some days when the seas are too rough to sit it down, it simply swings back and forth with the movement of the boat.

Cage about to descend

Water temperatures are in the low 60’s and visibility ranges anywhere from 20ft to maybe 60 ft on the best day.  The sharks eventually arrive and we have been very lucky, seeing 4 to 10 sharks average per dive.  They will circle the cage, some coming in for a closer look and at times to munch on the cage,  to see if it is edible.  Like people, they each seem to have a different personality and the overriding feeling of them is one of awe and appreciation of their magnificence, rather than fear of them.   Make no mistake, they are unpredictable wild animals who can change with the introduction of one new member who somehow “sets them off” into a much more aggressive behavior pattern, nosing between the bars of the the cage or banging it around eating the tuna heads attached to draw them in close to us, but the shark of “Jaws” is nowhere to be seen, wildly attacking with a single purpose of devouring us humans at any cost.

 

Andrew will tell you that these are not the great white sharks to dive with in open waters.  Some other locations in the world may offer this opportunity.  Places where the huge sea lions proliferate and allow the sharks a constant food source.  But here, at the Neptune Islands, the sea lion population is small and the seals themselves are not the huge ones you see elsewhere.  So these sharks are hungry and because of that are possibly more aggressive than their counterparts in South Africa or Guadeloupe Islands.  But then, so little is really known about great whites that any of this is conjecture – but I trust Andrew when it comes to knowing and understanding the sharks here.  I trust him enough to go down to the ocean floor in a cage with him and slide open the door to get better shots and know that if the situation changes with the temperament of the sharks, Andrew will sense this and instruct all of us in how to stay safe in a hostile environment.

Shark circles cage

We stay down on the bottom for about an hour – depending on depth and air consumption.  The cage is fitted with backup air tanks should be run out of air before our deco time and I must admit to using them on more than one occasion, proving myself the air hog of the cage.  On a good dive we had several shots where the sharks were within a few feet if not inches from our cameras and there wasn’t a dive when we weren’t all jazzed to be here, having this opportunity to witness them in their home environment.  There was also the chance to get into surface cages and see the sharks at the top of the water but it is a bit more unnatural to have them here at the top, cruising around bait attached to lines.  It is the stuff of tv drama – the shark following the bait pulled toward the camera and I admit the rush of having one inches from my domeport, teeth gnashing, sent chills down my spine and a rush of adreneline.  But I realized that this is us producing this look, not the shark.  They seem much more natural on the sea floor where they glide along and hunt on their own accord.

Great white from cage

In the last few years, 90% of all big fish in the oceans have been fished or destroyed for sport by man.  We kill somewhere around 75 million sharks per year.  Many of the shark species teeter on the brink of extinction.  Most are caught for shark fin soup, their bodies dropped back into the depths once the fin has been removed – where they die without their fins.  Some are fished and killed as trophies, out of the mania brought about by Jaws and other movies where they are portrayed as cold, ruthless killers.  What people don’t realize is if we destroy all the sharks, our reefs will die and the domino effect on the oceans and the fish in the oceans will leave us with a much different world.  One in which the oceans we know now will no longer exist.  Maybe it’s time to pause and reflect before we kill all of them in an effort to feed some cultural ritual or to rid ourselves of the fear of something we don’t understand.  If you are interested, Shark Savers and Wild Aid are two organizations that can provide more information about the continued decimation of the world’s sharks; it’s effects on the world’s oceans and how you can help.

The Princess II with cages mounted on stern

I fell lucky and blessed and thankful to Andrew and Rodney and the entire crew for this opportunity to see these amazing animals and meet people dedicated to their survival and protection.

 

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